Homesick

I missed Canada so much and it made me so depressed , especially the shopping part.. bohoooo...

Good news

snippets

1. I just gave a birth to a wonderful baby boy 7 week ago.
2. My relationship with mum n dad turned good. They visited me twice since I moved here.
3. I decided to stay at home and enjoying motherhood.
4. I got few presents from king and can't hardly wait for a big one ( Vios or Honda? ... hem.... )
5. Life is good.

So, what else I want? What happened to our DD dear? I need a structure and guidance from you . I felt lost when you're not around. But if you didn't work, I won't get a Vios.. LOL

submissive wife vs daughter part 3

King will bring me back to my parent's place this weekend. No more runaway, angel. He want me to settle everything before I go to the labor. He promise to stay beside me all the time. This is an order and I must obey it. I'm a bit nervous. Yes, my heart still broken, but I had to move on. I didn't talk with them for a month.

What is my plan? I don't know. I had to stop pretending and start be myself. I'm a submissive wife; I submit and obey to my husband and nothing can't change that. My parents should know and aware of it. I don't care what mum will say and think about it, this is my marriage and my life. I choose to live with it.

I have to start pack presents for everyone. We're in a very tight budget now but I had to do it. That's the only way to win their hearts back. Like some people said, no money, no love. Its true, that's how my family judged us this past 5 years. It's really hurt me because I'm not working anymore like my other siblings.

Wish me a luck.

The Characteristics of a Good Wife

Once in a while, I will search new things to put in my blog, mostly on how to be a good wife. I like this one, because is based on Quran and Hadith.

Its a bit longer so I just copy and paste the main idea ( after summarizing from Hadith)

1--She is a good Muslim, obedient to Allah and His Messenger.
2--She performs the five regular prayers and fasts Ramadhan.
3--She is obedient to her husband, unless he orders her to do evil.
4--She protects her husband's money and honor in his absence.
5--She is always nice to her husband, checking on his needs.
6--She always tries to please and calm him if he is angry or upset.
7--She bears his children and does not ask him for divorce for no reason.
8--She tries to always look and smell nice for her spouse.

Trapped

I trapped in King's castle. I can't go anywhere. He was away for few days. I wish I still in Ontario ...

I felt sick after going out last weekend. I won't go out again, until this disease is over. Everyday, on average 5 people died here because of H1N1. This is much worse than we were in Canada last time.

I got flu, coughs and asthma attack last few nights. I'm worried about my pregnancy. My due date will be next month and I'm not sure if I'm ready or not. I hate stayed at home but I don't have a choice. Every time I go out, I got sick. I took lots of medication that I supposed not to.

I hope everything will be end .. soon. It's so depressing to hear people died everyday because of this disease. I'll pray hard for everyone . Take a good care of yourself.

wife vs daughter part 2

I'm at almost 7 months pregnant now. I must avoid all the stress things. I don't want to think about it but its all coming back to me now. I didn't talk with her for a week after I hang up the phone last time. My husband ordered me to reduce talking with her because i will end up emotionally break down after every conversation with her. I cried, I couldn't breathe and totally lost control. I'm afraid I"m gonna end up in ER!!

Mama n papa, I adore you two most. I 'll give you everything I could, just to make you happy. I may be not your favorite daughter but I had a heart and feeling too. Can you two at least think that your daughter is pregnant now, can you show me some sympathy and respect my feeling? Why you had to ask what I do and give to our family? I'm not your kids anymore, I'm 29 and a mother of my own son. And If you forgot, I also had a husband. If you don't want to respect my feeling, at least show some mercy to my husband. He might be soft n gentle looking person, but he is the HOH in our house. He the one who make decision, not me.

Last night, my husband told me he don't want any involvement from my parents in our marriage.

to be continued later, our moving stuff just arrived!

wife vs daughter part 1

I need to write this. At first I taught to close the blog when i moving here, because I'm afraid soon people will detect my lifestyle. But I still need a place to write and express my feeling.

I moved to a new place last month, near to my family.Everything started to change, my husband left me at my parents house for a week and after that, I'm no longer submissive and obedient wife. My mum somehow try to control me and my husband in everything. It been going for a month until one day he found out I'm crying in the middle of the night. I had a conflict with my mum and it was so terrible.

To be continued...